Going With The Flow

I've always thought this was a good approach to living as life dealt out its unpredictables. Especially when those unpredictables are foisted upon me by incompetents and imbeciles, most recent of these being the convicted felon in the White House behaving so irresponsibly by refusing to announce arrival of SARS-CoV-2 on this continent because he didn't want stock market decline in Jan 2020 while struggling to cling to a position of power, followed by USFS incompetents starting the fire which would destroy my homestead of twenty-two years.

I had grown especially fond of my high country homestead over the decades, and I was deeply relieved to have survived and recovered from COVID in the first weeks of 2020–even before anyone knew how to help people avoid dying from that highly indiscriminate pathogen–to continue enjoying each and every single day I woke up and lived another day there. Then came the USFS and ruined that sense of contentment by burning the homestead and hundreds of thousands of surrounding wilderness forestland acres. Good fucking grief.

Now, the convicted felon in the White House leverages his position of power to wage half-assed wars driven by nothing but greed and relentless cravings for revenge against everyone, everywhere. I had once entertained notions of returning to Tehran to see the old neighborhood and acquaintances, and to possibly even trek out across the desert which started at the end of our kooche, as I had dreamed of doing when I was a teenager living there. So much for such possibilities. The convicted felon in the White House has ruined that.

So here I am reflecting on all of these negative events wondering what will be the best way to survive it all while continuing to exist as happily as I have managed to so far over almost seven decades now. Does greatest happiness await me back in high country wilderness which once provided so much deep, abiding joy and satisfaction that I never wanted to end?

Should I rebuild somewhere else up there which has not yet been destroyed by nincompoops of the USFS or some other agency of our highly toxic government? If I do, what are odds government nincompoops will manage to destroy that wonderful realm, too? Maybe it's best to stay in the lowlands now as my age advances further than I ever thought it would. Down in the lowlands where carnivores aren't roaming freely in search of sustenance.

Down in the lowlands where happiness can probably more safely be realized as events unfold in the naturally flowing manner they always have seemed to do throughout life so far.

Where life's rewards can often be especially sweet and satisfying, beyond all expectations.

And can reveal even more possibilities for deeper, more meaningful relationships unrealized.

While second childhood aspirations can be as wide open and unbounded as anywhere else.

Odds may have been stacking up against another three or four decades living in wilderness where nature could take some drastic turns on me, especially if my guard dropped off a little.

It never did, but that possibility was always lurking in my mind whenever I was moving around outside. And if it ever had culminated in a wildlife encounter of the third kind, I doubt it would have turned out well for me after so many previous close encounters that did.

Just one mother bear (like the one I had spotted from a distance frequently enough up there to name Blondie) mistaking me as a threat to her cubs would have ended all the good times.

Surely not a flow I would have wanted to go with, even if she hadn't been acting maliciously.

So maybe I could go with that flow, but not without trepidation over the pain it would bring. Perhaps it's better to live in the lowlands where I might expire while feeding hens and ducks.

I would be okay going with that flow.

Or while rocking on front porch after enjoying an especially tasty meal of roast hen or duck.

I could go with that flow without objection.

But I wonder now if the convicted felon in the White House will fuck it all up before it can be. If he'll achieve his goal of total dictatorship, then deploy his *MASAstapo to take me down.

Definitely not a flow I would go with peaceably.

*MASA: Make America Shitty Always